Bonnie Meadow: Music

• MP3 short clip, hi-fi play (broadband)
• MP3 short clip, lo-fi play (modem)

This is a sad one and this story is still sad. It is amazing to me that I wrote it now 10 years ago and every word still says what I have to say. I'm grateful to have the medium of music to put these hard feelings into form. I hope it helps someone out there.

It was rough from the beginning
You were a baby who cried,
Was it you or was it us?
I could never decide.
I wanted to save you
And God Knows I tried
But you dug the hole deeper
Each time that you lied
And you went down, down, down, down,
Falling down.

It was “Watch me, Mommy,
Come and see what I can do!”
You needed me to cheer and approve as you grew
But as time went on
Deep in my heart I knew
I couldn’t keep watching
And cheering as you
Kept falling down, down, down, down,
Falling down.

I don’t know where you’re going
But I’ve seen where you’ve been,
Your life has gotten ugly,
It’s a tangle of sin
Each time there’s an ending
It’s a chance to begin.
To keep repeating patterns,
There’s no way to win
You’re falling down, down, down, down,
Falling down.

I’m moving out of range
You can no more depend
On me, to believe you,
To manipulate or bend,
You’ve burnt and betrayed
Those who called you a friend
So rely on yourself now
And find a way to end
Falling down, down, down, down,
Falling down.